10:05PM-FRIDAY-JANUARY-21-2007

DIFFICULTIES Coming EveryWhere & everywhere no 1 way left from which difficulties is not coming & the only Music is left that make me feel Good means feels like i am in my past with my great Memories but its not real its fake.My father have over 3Lacks Rupees of leased & theres still no way to generate income & we
all (specially me) are veryy worried about it, for me its seemed to be that its all gone & nothing is left & happiness would never be came & all i can say is that 
"What if i were not in this world"  -- "wat if i could not born".......
                                                 "HERES COMES THE PAIN AGAIN FALLING FROM THE STARS"

Now! i am in veryy weardness situation & i also dont feel good,i dont feel like i felt in past ,now i am listening  japanese song "The Flower of Carnage" i know i  cant understand this song but this song's music & its tone  remind me my Memories my Past & it feel me like like.... i cant tell u because 'only the Memories u can remember & only the Feelings that u cant describe' ,this song feel me amazing & veryy cool & when i listen this song i imagine my all gone Memories & i cant tell u that how it feel me ....now i am remember all day every day & always my Memories & just my Memories my all best past moments,all school moments & thats all remind me this song,this song feel me like i got everything & my everytthing is my only MEMORIES because feelings is everything remember my this word 'feelings is everything' but now i have no feelings ,bad feelings but in my past i felt veryyy beautiful & like i am in heaven i dont know why its gone but it had to gone what i can do...nothing eXcept to missing it...now i am broken & broken heart can never fine again , even i wud have everything in this world but still i wud not have only 1 thing & that called my past my Memories my everything but i lost it .....
11:02pm-saturday-2006-23-decemeber-2006

23:41-THURSDAY-16-NOV-06

I am feeling veryy nice in this rainy weather by listening "wake me up when september ends" song & remembering my Beautiful Memories* the Beautiful Moments that i spend in my past,i am always remembering my Memories* but in rainy,cloudy,fast winds weather i more remember my MEMORIES*.I AM ALWAYS CRYING but i dont show to anyone,i am crying in my Broken HEART* & i am still crying & i will forever even i will have everything each & everything but i will still not have my memories* , the feelness that last time i feel between-25th-NOV-1996---31ST-MARCH-2001......

"WAKE ME UP WHEN my LIFE ENDS"

"Wake me up when this LIFE ENDs"

"Wake me up when my MEMORIES* ENDs"

"Here comes the Pain again Falling from the STARS"

"Like my MEMORIES come in PAST 15years has gone soo Fast"

"Wake me up when NOVEMBER ENDs"